Monday, May 25, 2009

THINKING....OF MY LIFE

BEING UP FOR SO LONG WITH NO SLEEP MAKES U THINK RANDOM SHIT:
  
*I FEEL MY LIFE IS REALLY NOT  GOING ANYWHERE. I FEEL I HAVEN'T  ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING.  THERE'S SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO BUT MONEY IS ALWAYS INVOLVED.  I WANT TO TRAVEL, THAT COST MONEY.  I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL, THAT COST MONEY. I WANT A HOUSE THAT I COULD CALL HOME WITH MY WIFE , KIDS AND MY DOG BEEMER...THAT COST ALOT OF  MONEY...GETTING A GIRLFRIEND WHICH EVENTUALLY MARRYING HER AND THEN HAVE KIDS AND HOPEFULLY MY DOG BEEMER WILL STILL BE WITH ME. 
*I GET FUCKIN' IRRITATED VERY QUICKLY AND PEOPLE COULD ALWAYS SEE WHEN IM IRRITATED....
*I GOT TWO JOBS NOW... FUCK... ITS TIME TO PAY OFF MY DEBT. MY GOAL IS TO BE DEBT FREE BY MID YEAR OF 2010. I THINK MY DEBT IS NOW AROUND $23K.
*I THINK IM GETTING FAT, THE USUAL SPOT WHERE ITS FUCKIN' HARD TO GET RID OF, THE STOMACH REGION.
*I HATE BEING THE QUIET , SHY, NICE GUY......
*THERE'S SOME STUFF I REGRET DOING, THAT STOPS ME FROM GOING ON WITH MY LIFE.
*I DON'T KNOW WHY I FEEL MORE COMFORTABLE AT WORK THEN OUTSIDE OF WORK.  IF YOU WORK WITH ME AND ALSO KICK IT WITH ME OUT OF WORK, YOU'LL SEE A BIG ASS DIFFERENCE.  AT WORK IM MORE OUTGOING, TALKATIVE, AND AT TIMES I DANCE OUT  OF NOWHERE.
*I DON'T KNOW IF IM GOING TO CONTINUE PHOTOGRAPHY, I DON'T THINK IM GOOD ENOUGH.
*I WANT TO FINISH THE "100 THINGS TO EAT AT SAN FRANCISCO BEFORE YOU DIE" LIST.
*IF YOU GOT IT GOOD, DON'T FUCK IT UP..
*AT TIMES, I HAVE THOUGHTS OF BEATING SOMEONE.  MAYBE ITS BECAUSE I HAVE SO MUCH FRUSTRATION AND REGRET INSIDE..
*I THINK I MIGHT JUST ISOLATE MYSELF FROM THE WORLD UNTIL I GET THINGS STRAIGHTEN OUT.
* I WANT AN ICE CREAM CONE.

I'M TIRED NOW...GOING TO SLEEP...FML

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